Holy sh*^! I think this is what they call “long suffering”. Who the hell told me to get pregnant again? Huh? Who? Why? As you know, from prior posts, I have a son who is now 8 years old. I wasn’t planning on having another one. My 1st was planned though. I’ve gotten used to his independence. I damn sure don’t miss the diaper bags, the stroller, the dirty diapers, the potty training and all the excess stuff. To start all over again, now?! It’s so hard for me to grasp the thought of this. With a global pandemic, chaos and just pure uncertainty, this wasn’t what I envisioned or planned. Once my son finds out, he will be the happiest kid on Earth though. I mean, do you know how long that boy has been asking for a sibling? That boy literally put “sibling” on his Christmas list. He’s been praying to God for one. He gets frustrated because he says God doesn’t answer him. Welp, little does he know! God laughed at my plans and answered my son’s prayers. I’m 12 weeks as I type this. I’m waiting for my next appointment, which is in a few days. Then I’ll share the news with him.
Am I Pregnant?
I found out the 1st weekend in June. I was nauseous for two days straight. I felt so sick. I expressed my concerns to my boyfriend and he had the nerve to tell me that it may be the Coronavirus. No he didn’t! On Fridays, we usually eat seafood, and he brought home some baked clams which I love, but that Friday, the seafood smelled as though it was spoiled. I was turned off by it. He said the food was fine. They did say the Coronavirus messes up your senses right…yikes! I woke up Saturday with extreme nausea. I said to myself, “I’m pregnant, the last time I felt like this, I was pregnant with Jay.” I repeated this to my boyfriend and he was still in denial. “I mean we went eight years without any mishaps right?” I’m on point when it comes to my ovulation.
I just saw my OBGYN two weeks ago and there were no signs of pregnancy. What the hell is happening here? So I decided to buy a test…time to pee. BAM, two pink lines. I looked up and said, “God, now?, really?” I immediately remembered my conversation with my OB a few weeks prior. Out of the blue she just started saying, “well if you are trying for a baby, everything looks perfect, you’re good to go”. “It just looks like you will be starting your cycle soon”. I said, “no, I won’t be trying for a baby, not during these times.” We laughed about it. Now look! God and his funny ways I tell ya!
I showed my boyfriend the positive test and he was staring at it like WTF, are you for real? Ha. He said well you need to go confirm this because you were just at the doctor. No sh*^, I’m just as shocked as you too! As we were waiting for the appointment which was scheduled for the following Friday, we were really sitting around trying to process this. We told his parents, my parents and our siblings. The joke was, it was because we were drinking all those ginger shots. Let me explain.
So while on lockdown, we took our health extra seriously. We are both in law enforcement (making us more likely to be exposed to the virus). While my agency was working with a skeleton crew/volunteer basis, his agency, had to go in. I chose to stay home with our son to combat the new online schooling. However, while he was at work, many of his officers were coming down with the virus which meant possible exposure for him and us at home. We began juicing and steaming. We were juicing kale, green apple, ginger, beets, turmeric, lemons, limes and storing them in masons jars. Then we would cut up lemons, orange peels, onions and boil that in water and inhale the steam for a few minutes a few times a day. Our diet kind of changed into super clean eating. It seemed to work and keep our immune system strong and healthy because we never contracted the virus. With all that damn juicing, it probably detoxed our systems. It made him potent and me fertile. So that’s the running joke. So fast forward to now, the pregnancy was confirmed.
This first trimester has been hell. I’ve lost 13 lbs so far. I can’t keep anything down. I vomit at least 3x a day. The toilet and I are best friends. Here are the constant symptoms: bring up bile (orange/yellow liquid) every morning, the constant spitting (I literally fill up 3 cups a day, so gross), my mouth is constantly filling up with saliva, it chokes me in my sleep; I have a spit cup with me at all times. The nasty taste in my mouth that won’t go away. Wishing I could drink a bottle of Listerine. Everything smells, I have no energy. All I want to do is stay in bed and sleep. While in bed, I toss and turn saying, “this can’t be life”. I’m miserable, there’s no relief.
When I was pregnant with my 1st son, I was sick the entire 9 months with the same symptoms but for some reason, this feels worse. At least with my first pregnancy I was able to drink iced cold water and slurp down 7/11 slushie’s. This baby is relentless, I can’t even drink water. Even ice taste nasty. I don’t know when I last urinated. No juice, slushy or anything will suffice. My friend suggested pure coconut water as a last resort. I do not want to be admitted into the hospital for an IV with this virus floating around. I tried coconut water and that seemed to stay down, plus it has electrolytes. I’m praying that all these symptoms will stop soon because the thought of continuing the rest of my pregnancy this way is overwhelming. I’m not even halfway. As for my prenatal pills, I had to switch them. My original ones were gummies and I couldn’t bare chewing them and they would come right back up. This baby is sucking the life out of me. As did my son, who was born 8 lbs 4oz.
As for the moms who have wonderful pregnancies, enjoy being pregnant and have children back to back, I tip my hat off to you women. Kudos to you. This 24/7 sickness is no joke and it’s not something that you won’t forget. As for the moms who suffer from severe sickness called hyperemesis gravidarum, I grieve for you. I’ve even read up on some moms who’ve had to terminate their pregnancy because of it. It’s horrible. Last but not least, the moms who’ve been trying so hard to conceive, you are a reminder of what a blessing it is to be able to carry a child. I know you would deal with all the nausea and vomiting in the world to have a baby. It’s humbling, it puts me in my place. To just be grateful and deal with it because through all this suffering, the reward is great.
With all that being said, I plan to take you on this journey with me. Stay tuned!